The truth?

We are not meant to be suffering, but it seems we are meant to have poor perception of the world- so of ourselves.  The perception of the human mind is always confusing- and riddled with biases we are now learning so much of. The biases will always stop us from finding truth in anything, until we really observe. Not in a simple sense of the world- but really observe. 

The problem with observing especially really observing- well my mind is riddled with biases how can i ever observe- a paradox i quite like. It truly shows how i can always seem to be moving away from the truth- when i truly try. The more i try the more biases come into play. As J. K seems have found out knowledge leads to biases and they will always stop us from freedom. But if isn't that a piece of knowledge which i am assuming stops me from finding the truth?

What does it all mean- am i still in the realm of Nihilism. I dont know. I think my I dont know have become more and more clear. Does that make me humble, does that make me softer, probably not. A awareness by itself is just that- nothing more nothing less. The perception has shifted not made clear or reduced the biases. Still not able to say i am less rude, but i can say more happier.

Sadly being happy is a fleeting sensation. It leads to more craving and it is making me more -well arrogant. well it seems i have hoped on another loop. if i have to leave this loop, i should stop. I need to stop perceiving.  Well i am going to suffer until i perceive. I know it seems I open the mind and the world comes in- i dont have control of whats coming it. That much is clear. how do i stop perceiving without bias.  I cant and we are all meant to suffer.   

Love

Hariohm